failure inspire winner

beautiful

here is a good saying from my good fren..

it is very pretty.. i like it very much... hope u all like it.

this is words from good ppl, kind-hearted, n pure. it is just really nice.

We help by doing our part the best we can, and if we don’t get anything in return, I’m sure we accumulate good merits which will deliver to our next generation which isn’t too bad after all. Until now, I’ve always count my blessings. Of course, if I were to compare myself with other people, I shall lament on my luck and fate BUT I already consider myself fortunate and blessed to be who I am now. I have good family, good friends, and most importantly, throughout my life, I met great people who taught and encouraged me so much in life. If we compare ourselves to the less fortunate, the handicapped, the orphans, we couldn’t have asked for more could we?

thanks CL, this words lighten up my day.

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Mobin told me that " beauty is forever joy". he quoted from shakespere.

Beauty, here, means inner beauty.

n those words from CL, is the forever joy!

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there is always good people around us.

No doubt, u r.

love u~

a jerk

today i have an interview for the extension of my fellowship. ( 6 months once evaluation)

well, it is a very important interview, and i dont want fail it.

although i have some progress in my work enable to secure my extension, ii still afraid that i couldn't perform well.

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this morning, as usual,

Me: morning kak, morning Azi.

Azi: kenapa pakai cantik hari ini? macam nak MENGORAT LELAKI.

Me: ( can see steam on my head alr) No ah~ today interview so pakai formal sikit.

Azi: tak pernah nampak u pakai macam tu.

Me:( u r the one has no progress that cant go to conference) saya sudah pernah pakai ke conference ah, kak betul tak?

Kak: (nod her head)

Azi: pinggang kamu kecil la, rasa macam nak patahkannya!

Me: ( u jealous cos u dun hv is it? still, i smile to her) :)

Azi: hari ini interview ker? pasti FAIL punya.

Me: (wah lao, shut up ur mouth) choi choi choi..

Azi: pasti FAIL punya lar...

Me: (better shut up now) :)

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then i talked to my another lab mate who was very worry about the interview.

Me: dont worry, u just need to let them know your progress, that's wat they want to know.

Re: im so scare..i need the funding.

Azi: Re, u also interview ah...sure FAIL one...

Me: touch wood touch wood...

Re: oh my God...

Azi: hehehehe...

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initially i tot is 1 to 1 interview. when i went to the interview room, then only i knew it is 8 to 1 interview. including dean, 2 deputy deans, 3 program charimans and other.. i knew i need to go through hard time here.

it turned out, 6 to 1 interview. 2 absent.

God, they asked questions that can not be answered. such as:-

Panel: Do u need this fellowship?

ME: yes, i very in need.

Panel: wow, in need! then where u use the money for?

Me: cost of living, books..

Panel: apart from that?

Me: accomodation, sometime transportation..

Panel: no no, apart from this, to ur lab work?

Me: Er..( all chemicals are ready, n student need not to buy any equipment, how to answer?)

Panel: what is ur justification on this fellowship in your lab work? compare to those unfortunate one?

Me: Er..( justification?? unofrtunate??anyone eliminated just now??)

and so on, and so forth... (still have alot question actually)

Panel: y u choose Bio waste , bio flocculant, so many 'bio' words as pre-fix? y not u called urself as bio ho yeek chia?

Me: ( Godammit, what the fuck!?)

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i did not know whether i performed well. but i did answer all questions, but there were some candidates cant answer their questions.

oh no..it is so tough..

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i entered the post graduate's room..saw Azi again..

Azi: how is it?

Me: Re, i think i did it not-so-good...

Azi: macam mana?

Me: this mornnig u cursed me.

Azi: no ah...bla bla bla( trying to defence)

Me: No, this morning u r ACTUALLY CURSING ME. ( my tone increased)

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there is always a people who envy of us.

they will try to bring you down, to make them feel better.

albeit, there are times that they actually do not want sth, but bcos they do not want u to have it, so they come to compete with you.

but y?

i have no idea.

all i know is, Azi is a post graduate student, she needs to have some level of inteligence, to speak words.

i regret to say that, she is still not met up to standard.

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today, i realized that im very mean.

actually, there is no use to angry with such people, not classy at all, do all those nasty things to hurt people.

But, i would say, i wan her to pay for all this.
( actually, before that, she always bully me, but i just ignore, but this time, is a limit to me)

Now, i will turn every disaster into my opportunity to make her life more 'beautiful'.

vindictive? oh yes, i admit it.

one of my principal in life: no one can ever pull me down to make him/her go forward.

if u cant live harmoniously with me, i will make sure u 'die' before me.

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i so wanted to tell her that,
even if i mengorat, i wont so miang like u~

牙痛

很痛。。睡眠半途。。好梦惊醒。。很痛。。

很想告诉全世界：我牙痛。。很痛。。。

男友也在睡（他在自己家睡）。。但他不睬我。。气死人！

虽然告诉了几位好友。。。

大家都说见牙医。但，槟城， 牙医服务费很贵。。。

很想回家。。 但，现在又塞车。。 咳。。。晚上又不敢回。。。 塔巴士。。很危险。。

牙痛。。。

又要上学。。又要搬家。。又要交功课。。周末又要看演唱会- Kenny G..

牙痛。。来得真不是时候。。

T_T

Ridiculous

one funny thing happened to me this morning.

i go to toilet..took off my cloth... bathing...wet my hair and body..

then i poured my shampoo on my hand, rub it with water... foamss... wow..nice shower..

but when i was about to put it on my wetted hair, some one knocked my door.

A: who are u?

Me: yeekchia lo.

A: Can u come out from the toilet? B want to use it. urgent! ( yup, i knew she wanted to s**tting)

Me:but im bathing. ( i think of wearing my cloth then go out)

A: She wants to use it NOW.

then i sensed that they want me to leave the toilet IMMEDIATELY.

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when i came out form toilet, they both just stood at the door.expeccting me.

i understand that B wants to use the toilet urgently, but cant they wait me to put on my cloth first?

i feel like i was forcing to get out of the toilet.

i wish to help her also..but at least i have to help myself 1st.

Imagine, wet hair, wet body, one hand hold the towel that cover part of my body, then another one took the shirt, bra, panty, pads ... speaking of pads, im having my menses, heavy flow day.

can u imagine how clumsy i was? again, wet hair, wet body, n my PERIOD IS FLOWING.

oh God... that's really unacceptable!

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early in the morning, i already put in a situation like this..

will get cold, menses is flowing... dont know where to wait (so i get into my room, then my roomate was there, i cant simply take off my towel n dry myself.. remember, menses is FLOWing.

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oh ya..i never hear 'sorry' or 'thank you' from either party.

this is ridiculous!

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i understand she needs toilet, but do they ever think of, wat im doing in the toilet, wat if i was shamppooing the hair? so i have to walk out with shampoo on my hair?

ridiculous.

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at least, gimme 1 min to dry or dress myself. or maybe less than that.

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in the end i also cant continue my bath, cos another person enter when i wanted to..

so, it was a really bad day - the toilet scenario.

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Moral behind this story :
a) if u wish to help other, pls think of all parties. is it good for all..if not choose alternative way.
b) asking from help from ppl needs soem skill. PEOPLES ARE NOT OBLIGHT TO HELP U, THEY ARE DOING A FAVOR FOR YOU. SO BE POLITE.
c) say sorry or thank you...to show ur polite..not saying:" u can use now "
d) be considerate. not the one in need, also with the one who help, cos u wan them to help WILLINGLY.
e) never ORDER a person to help. we are born with hgiher intelligence than any other animal, to think. So, ppl have the brain to tell them wat to do. u dont need to give an order and ask other to follow exactly wat u wanted to.

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story end.

ERA

i've been listening to ERA's song for years.

i would like to share with u, her song.

i think it is very nice, especially, The Mass, Looking for Something, Do';t you forget... A few to name.

here is some of her songs. hope u like it.

the genre is - New Age.

Don't You Forget

Ameno

Enae Volare Mezzo

Mother

The Mass

Looking For Something

( click on the title, will direct you to video+lyrics website)

enjoy ya^^

玄

好友的母亲过世了.
昨晚去拜访她.
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一踏入她家门, 我有种想哭的感觉.
伤感.
当我看见好友时. 我眼框都红了.
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失去最亲近得人, 是多么的伤心.
但,她蛮坚强的.
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真突然.
不习惯.
难接受.
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生命就是酱脆弱.
希望大家可以在还有机会时,积福, 结善缘, 报恩, 化怨.

情人节

他一句开玩笑的说：“不爱你“。令我勾起很多悲伤的回忆。。。

分手，麻木了。

但，每当想起曾经经营又结束的感情，都很伤。。

并不是我回顾过去。但，它是我的过去。

我，已经离开原点很久了。

不管，是如何分手的，和平？吵架？不了了之？第三者？

我很肯定的是，都是伤心的。

可能以前还小，不懂珍惜爱，不懂如何选折伴侣，不懂了解，不懂体谅， 不懂人生。。。

希望你们都会珍惜有缘人。

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很庆幸， 当我一一学会，懂事时，遇上他了。

（还有谁？ 郑大人啦。）

我特别珍惜他。

没有理由，纯粹，很爱他。

可能有缘吧？

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情人节咯。。。

是伤感的。

很想快乐点儿。但，内心的痛苦，还是骗不了人。

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每个人都有快乐的过去，当然也有心酸的。

‘分手’- 会再一次发生在我身上吗?

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大家,情人节快乐!

分手也要快乐了!

哈哈哈...

感谢

忘记最重要的。要感谢父母！

没有他们的存在，就没有我。

没有他们的爱护，就没有今天健康的我

没有他们的疼爱，就没有乖乖的我。

没有他们的支持，就没有今天的我。

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从小到大的，朋友，知己们。

占了我人生大部分的分享。

息怒哎乐。。。

朋友，没有你们的日子。是很寂寞，孤单的！

所以，不论，你们身在方园十里，或千里之外。。

我还是会念着你们。

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还有1 个小时， 就更老了。。。

还是积极一点，向着理想。。冲呀！！

生日

去年，我给自己最好的礼物 ： 离开一个不属于自己的地方。向着理想前进。

今年，上帝/ 神明/ 佛陀，给于我最好的礼物：郑苇骏。

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23 年就要过去了，想想自己做了什么？- 没有。

还是一样念书，
还是一样做寄生虫，
还是一样笨蛋+ 霸道+ 任性。

唯有不同的是， 我又老了！

再过几年，相信，我需要羊胎素/ 拉皮/Botox 了。

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咳。。。 人生短短。。。

好痛苦。。。 我还没贡献给家人，给社会，给自己，给爱我的人，及我爱的人。

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踏入24 岁，

很想毕业！

希望我25 岁，就可以毕业了！

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讲真，毕业后，不懂要干麻？

1）接下去读？
2）做工？
3）嫁人？

第三，恐怕，没那么快吧！

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“生日”- 从21 岁开始，就不想面对的一天！

祝福

明天, 有位友人, 注册结婚了...

恭喜恭喜。。。

希望，你们二位，会地久天長.

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但，

结婚,这二字. 对我（暂时）来说,只是个负担.

结婚,对我来说,是约束，是责任，是死亡!（太太夸张了？有点啦）哈哈

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当我在享受单身生活时,突然,有个人闯入我生活,我有够觉得不习惯了.

如果,这时,再加上结婚来绑着自己...

我会。。。

逃!

（立刻、马上、飞腿、拔起翅膀。。飞！）

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不能，不能接受。。。

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还未定性？

不懂。。或许还未打算过。。。

还是， 保持现在这样。。。最好的。。。

嘿嘿。。。

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这首歌不错。

祝福你们两位啦。